Saturday, August 8, 2009

Fight Like a Girl - Bomshel

Don't ever forget you are brave and beautiful. So Fight like a girl!




Little girl alone on the playground
Tired of gettin' teased and gettin' pushed around
Wishin' she was invisible
To them
She ran home cryin'
"Why do they hate me?"
And Mama wiped the tears and said
"Baby, you're brave and you're beautiful.

So, hold your head high.
Don't ever let 'em define
The light in your eyes.
Love yourself, give them Hell.
You can take on this world.
You just stand and be strong
And then fight
Like a girl."

At 31 she was wheelin' and dealin'
Kept on hittin' that same glass ceilin'
She was never gonna be one of the boys, no
She coulda gave up on her ambition
And spent the rest of her life just wishin'
Instead she listened to her mama's voice sayin'

"Hold your head high.
Don't ever let 'em define
The light in your eyes.
Love yourself, give them Hell.
You can take on this world.
You just stand and be strong
And then fight
Like a girl."

Oh, with style and grace
Kick ass and take names

Ten years of climbin' that ladder
Oh, but money and power don't matter
When the doctor said "the cancer spread"
She holds on tight to her husband and babies
And says "this is just another test God gave me.
And I know just how to handle this"

I'll hold my head high
I'll never let this define
The light in my eyes
Love myself, give it Hell
I'll take on this world
If I stand and be strong
No, I'll never give up
I will conquer with love
And I'll fight like
Like a girl

Friday, June 5, 2009

I never want to forget this

Going through a rough patch right now with my Fibro and emotions. I posted this on the DailyStrength Fibromyalgia Forums:

I've always been a caring person. I keep my friends close and care deeply about what happens to them. I borderline fear letting them down. I tend to care too much, and sometimes it feels misplaced. (I think theres more than a little "people-pleaser" in me.)

But, I find, when I take these things to heart, it really wears me out. I feel it physically. No one seems to understand the physical ramifications of what I'm feeling. I learned long ago crying would oddly be a release and a stressor at the same time. I really struggle with my emotions and it literally hurts. To top it off, I struggle with depression. I've beaten it in the past, but I seem so much more prone to it these days.


I guess, my question, to get to the point, is how do i deal with this? Is there a way to care about people without my own physical pain? Is it a failing in me to manage my emotions? Is the only option to save me pain to stop caring?

I don't know if I'm making sense........but I'm hoping someone out there will understand where i'm coming from.


And got this reply:

First off..Accept Who you are, and What you are about...putting yourself out there as Real will attract Like people...

I had an Odd {for me} experience about 5 Weeks ago...I had a Dr. that easily showed Compassion...this is No shit, I cried...Relief, Release...yea...and I am fairly thick skinned...Emotional yes...but I was shocked at the Physical Emotionality of it all...Just being shown a bit of Comapssion brought out in Me.

Depression can be deadly...it is Oddly comfortable...Unlike Anxiety...and that makes it even harder to Pull away from...but...it CAN be Done...get your bag of tricks together...your "I Feel good Bag"..Inside that Bag, keep all the things that make ya Feel Good...that Flood your Blood with the Feel Good Hormones...

Dancing is my top trick...works 80 percent of the Time...putting on my good Old Rock & roll...yea...Floods me with the good stuff...

it is Also important to deal with any issues that may be making you Depressed...not always an easy thing, cause it is not always easily identifiable...but search it out...deal with it...and but it in a Box...way in the back of ur brain somewhere...Unhappy at work, relationships, location where ya live...missing people...cloudy weather can set many of us off...yea...the list can get quite Long...learb to Counter act those bad negative thought with good happy things...this does work...is a neat trick !!

You are a sensitive Soul !! nothing wrong with that !! use it to your Advantage !! alot of people can use people just like you in their Lives !! with all the rush to the finish line it is refreshing to see Compassion really does still exist !! YeaY !! but learning to back up a bit...not to overstep ur place is also Needed !! keeps People from Feeling Smothered...and you from easily getting your feelings hurt !! No Need to Stop...just back up a few steps...

Hugs !!


Has me thinking:
  1. Who AM I? I guess compassionate and caring is up on the list, but I think the only reason those come to mind is because of what I'm going through emotionally at the moment.
  2. What's in my "Feel Good Bag"?
    1. Singing, obviously
    2. Reading. Scripture, Christian novels, (and more i'm sure I'll add to this list later)
    3. Swimming
    4. Free Writing
    5. Designing
    6. Needlepoint or Jewelry Making
  3. What things depress me? What needs to be shoved in that box and given to God?
I'm going to have to build on this list.

Friday, January 30, 2009

How are you doing?

I got this in an email today.


Re: A question that was asked of me today; "Hey Michelle... How are you?

________________________________________________

Are you sure you want to know?

We're doing pretty good considering that we now have a man who was once described as the "most liberal senator in American history" in the White House.


Everyone says that we shouldn't criticize him but should give him some time. It's funny to me how its these same people who didn't give President Bush any such grace period. These are also the same people who said that criticism of Bush was patriotic.

Obama should be subject to the same criticism experienced by other presidents. FGS...He's the President of the United States!! Shouldn't we hold him to the highest standards?

But don't worry I'll support the president. I've decided that I am going to use the same absurd sayings that were used about the war when it was said, "I support the military but not the mission" and change mine to "I support the president but not his policies" By turning it around I'll be able to illustrate just how empty their support for our troops really was.

I guess that I should just be more positive or maybe pledge to smile more often like Demi Moore. Maybe that will help me ignore the fact that since Obama took office...

Our stocks have sank even lower than they were before.

That he signed an executive order which will lead to the closing of Gitmo. What I want to know is where will they put these guys? Do we move them to AMERICAN soil? Where, with their ACLU lawyers they may get them off on a technicality, only to be released to grow the sleeper cells already here? These men are TERRORISTS, period. They do not belong here on our soil.

Next, he signed an executive order repealing the ban on funding international groups that provide abortions. Great!! Now even more of my tax dollars will be used to support abortions. Not to mention the fact, that with the strike of a pen, all hospitals are now required to participate in abortion procedures, many of which will no longer require parental consent, or be forced to shut down.

Wow!! That's real change that we can all believe in!!!

However, last night was the final straw when I heard a guy on the radio describe Obama as being a selfless individual (ha! as if any politician really is) who only wants to "elevate" all Americans." I don't want him or anyone else to ELEVATE ME!! I can do that myself, thank you very much!! The only thing I want my president to do is keep me safe and keep his sticking hands out of my pockets!!

Sorry but you asked how I was (lol!) and that's my honest answer. :)